I lost my favorite .... an excerpt from a novel-fantasy

I have lost a loved one. Person who gave me everything - love, warmth, tenderness ... 6 I trampled it all. During this time, there were moments of mutual understanding and happiness, but there was more wrong. She tried her best to keep the family together, forgive all, crying, asked, begged me to become a man. I thought that it all can last forever. I allowed myself to everything. I loved her love of "owner". She gave a whole, fulfilled all my moods. She deserves true love. Now I understood. If everyone could take back! But it's too late. I can not call and come to her. It is a shame for all the pain that I caused her, for all the tears. Lyudushka my, be happy, be loved. Forgive me if you can. I know that I'm missing person. Never more beloved and dear woman did not give me your affection, do not smile at me. My head is empty, the future will not see .....